Leap.

There's something mysterious about the month of February.
It sort of sets up the following months for summer-in Missouri at least. It brings those last few weeks of snow and ice to an end and brings about tree buds, the small peach fuzz of grass, and the sweet aroma of warmth as the midwest takes off its winter coat.
At a time like this you can't help but to strive for new growth and wisdom.
A fresh start.

In the past few months I've taken up street performing.
Every Friday and Saturday night I lug my guitar downtown to the town square of Springfield and find a nice solid and busy place to plop down and sing.
I see demographics ranging from the homeless to the drunks, from pub-crawling college kids to street evangelists.
It's a wide plethora of beautiful people, all to share my creativity with.
Some nights I'm tipped well, others not so much. But regardless, I bring home a warm heart because I'm finally living and loving what I do.
I'm not sure what this will bring me, but the experiences I have out there last me a lifetime.

I've been inspired to leap, and surely the net WILL appear.
Take risks.
Adventure out of your comfort zone.
If you seek something strongly you'll find it.



What do you want?
Reach and grab it.

-andy

Sat her day

I have a down comforter on my bed, and every morning my movement stirs up many small feathers that have snuck out of it.
I feel like I'm in some sort of romantic/fantasy movie with the sunlight pouring through my window and the feathers floating through its golden beams.
It's truly a remarkable experience.

Insomnia has been the girl in my life these days.
She's kept me up through some of the later hours of the morning, which is fine by her, but not by me.
To counter her selfishness I've been taking an herbal supplement called Valerian Root.
Other than the fact it smells like gym socks, this root has been used for thousands of years by the greeks for a sleep aid.
It's also great for anxiety as well!
You can get this magical stuff over the counter at most any local grocery that sells supplements.
Highly recommended.

To the drunk people on the square last night-thank you for the generous tip you gave me.
I know you probably didn't realize how much you were giving me, I'm surprised you could find your wallet.
I hope the song and a half I played for you, standing in the cold was worth it.

I'm off to pick up a cello and learn to play.
You're loved,
-andyhaut

Short; sweet.

Develop interest in life as you see it; in people, things, literature, music-the world is so rich, simply throbbing with rich treasures, beautiful souls and interesting people. Forget yourself.

Waking In A Winter Wonderland

If only I knew how old the house I currently reside in REALLY is before I signed the lease, I may have had more questions about its previous winter conditions.

THIS is the condition of our sink/countertop.



Not that it's ever clean or anything, but in this particular moment in time the dishes cannot be cleaned.
Due to our ancient plumbing, our pipes have frozen, leaving us waterless.

Option #1:
An over-sized redbull placed strategically under the heating vents in hopes we can produce enough water to flush the toilet with.
Though environmental-friendly, this energy capsule is a cooler. Cooler=slow.



Option #2:
Store bought.


Handy, cheap, but something mother earth doesn't deserve.

Our best/most efficient option-Friends.
The best people to have around.
Thank you to all I've bugged for a washer, shower, or lovely conversation.

Here's a diagram I've drawn on a paper plate:
It portrays how our heating system works.




As you can see, we have a big empty space under our house which holds a lot of cold air.
This is also where the water pipes are located. What an intelligent design..
Our heating vents are located on our ceiling, as far away from our bodies as they can be.
In order to enjoy the comfort of central heating, one must be completely vertical and will only be warm from the chest up (location may vary with height).
If you are on the couch, you will feel no heat whatsoever, for the cold air rising and the warm air descending meet in the middle of the room creating a scientific phenomenon.



So dearest friends,
Remember that you're not alone in these cold times, and when winter does end we will truly see that the sun is always brighter.
May you have a lovely winter,
Stay warm,
and bundle up.



With love, driving to the gas station to poop,
-andypants

Plane now boarding for 2010, please leave all baggage behind

How blessed are we that we get to see ANOTHER new year!?

Kisses and cake for everyone!

As we explore the endless possibilities for this new year let's take our vows,

and may we keep focus on what is truly important to us.
Let it not be money or pride, regret or hatred.

Let this year be filled with equality and joy, forgiveness and acceptance.

We're all in this together, to help our brothers and sisters off the ground.

I hope you'll strive for joy in each and ever conversation you have, and take every opportunity you're handed as a new blessing.

This year WILL be a start of new and beautiful things!
Enlightenment.
Peace.
Faith.
New communication.
Less time on the phone, and more time in person.
I thought I'd share with you a piece of 2009 with you via video.
...call it an INNERview if you will.. :D



Thank you for your support and for sharing your love with me and your friends.
May all your wishes and resolutions be kept and come true this year.

We hope you enjoy your stay here in 2010, thank you for choosing the new and improved planet Earth :)

In Joy Your Day,
-andyhaut

Free

The first track of my new cd starts with this:

"Today's the day that I will make a conversion
Feels like the perfect time to push out a smile"

There's absolutely nothing better than that moment when you're finally comfortable in your own skin.
When tomorrow doesn't matter, and when the things you've done have passed and been accepted.
You can't help but to sit back, relax, and put on your favorite song.

Learn to make yourself so happy, you want to cry.
That first step is to let love in.

Another 5 am blog gives me just this.

I see the sun stretching toward the treeline, and it's more than happy to see me this morning.
The feeling is mutual.

The birds sing in the morning because they can't be more excited for the new day. They're so happy that they can fly to the furthest reaches of the sky, and watch over all the earth. They are guardian angels.

I see it this morning as one sings outside my window. She is beautiful, perfect in design.

Some would say that I don't have a lot of money. I don't have an incredibly fancy car, or a killer job. I'm unlucky in love, not the coolest kid on the block, and am not famous by any means.

But to me, it's different. I have enough money to support my body with the nourishment it needs. I have enough money to be generous enough to others at any given moment; whether it be a tip at a restaurant, or just helping out another. I have enough money to provide some sort of shelter from the weather. To me, I'm the richest there could be. I went to high school with a couple of musicians who are now rich and famous, touring the U.S. I also went to high school with another girl who spends her time painting. She's not big and famous, she's not rich, but she couldn't ask for more. She's the happiest girl I know, because she's in love with life.

The fact that I can get in a machine and transport myself across the country in a matter of days gives me extraordinary super powers.

I'm not in a codependent relationship. But I know what love feels like, and even if I never find love again, and thankful to have experienced it at all.

I guess what I'm saying is there's so much more to the little things than we could ever know.

So as you wake this morning, tomorrow morning, or any morning for that matter, lets do this together.

Lets stretch, breathe in the best breath you've ever taken, and smile.
Today, you're a millionaire.
Today you have wings.
Today you can bring out the best in someone else.
Today you can let the little things go.
Today you can know that someone cares about you.
Because I'm so happy you're here today. You might not see it, but so many people around you are too. Make a plan to let others know the same today. Let them know you care they're here.

Be you.
Be free!!!

Whatever you hold in your mind will tend to occur in your life. If you continue to believe as you have always believed, you will continue to act as you have always acted. If you continue to act as you have always acted, you will continue to get what you have always gotten. If you want different results in your life or your work, all you have to do is change your mind.

What would you do if you couldn't fail?
Because I've got news-you can't =)

-AndyHaut

I thank you sadness, you bring out the best in me

This is what I look like at 5am.



I'm on top of the world this morning!
Not because of any advantage other than the sunrise waking me to share its beauty.
I was blessed with the feeling of sadness last night.
To be the 3rd wheel on a date and see the joy between two other people is wonderful, but a feeling I miss oh so much.

I do miss the kind of love a couple share.

But I acknowledge that any previous feelings I've had of the matter no longer exist. I must create new feelings, and new experiences.

I suppose time will find me when it must.

I surrendered my heart to the night last night and fell into the sunrise with a magic so extravagant.

Just to awake with the feeling of most significance and wonder, for I've lived another day, and I'm here.

Today.

Given the chances of being born and able to live here on earth, I was one of the chosen to
live how I want to, freely.

Everything around me is perfect.

I may be unlucky in love, but I'm most fortunate in individuality, and I love the fact that I'm here this morning is perfect.

My friends, today is July 10th, 2009. This day will never ever ever come again. Make today YOUR day. Be crazy!
Do something wonderful!
You are here.